“And I am lost, so lost, you are the constellations…”
I pulled up to my house around 10:30pm after an hour at the gym. I stepped out of my car and I just stared up at the sky. I gazed up at the stars, mesmerized by the number of constellations and the various loners lighting up the night sky.
Then I thought of you because whenever i look up I think as though you might be looking back. But I dont know where you really are, I can only hope you are watching over me. You were my rock. You always knew what to say to fix everything, even if it was just for a short amount of time. I realize it’s up to me now. Sometimes I just wish I still had your guidance. It was too soon, I wasn’t ready, no one was. I just miss you, I really do.
I love you dad. It doesn’t get any easier to deal with, just easier to hide.
